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she's dancing my pain away

Monday, 2 July 2007 11:54 pm

hey... i m feeling dam happy. after watching transformers and spending time with my dear. so happy. but at the same time i dam sad.. cos.. dear wan to go drinking. sigh.. dear not i don let u go. i trust u. i trust u wont drink so much but ur temptations for alcohol is high. after wadever happen to u last time when u are at party and all u cant hold ur alcohol. i noe. u don haf to say no. i can tell from the way u drink and the way u tell me. sorry i jus noe ok. and i know it's stupid but i watch the show on tv tat many misunderstanding starts happen when ppl drink and gettin drunk and high ? and gals will b vulnerable to guys' attack from "rape" or molest. i'm serious and gals will not know wad will happen if they are drunk or high. they will know only after wad happen? like going to bed with another guy? i know u are with them, but don forget u are going home urself and the place u walk is dark and deserted. and if they are oso drunk or high, do u tink they can help u ? i don tink so. my frens go to bar, they saw alot of incidents at all this places, clubs, bars etc etc. so i really hope u will think twice lar.. sigh. u promise me not to go club, i appreciate that and i wont ask u again. i will know alot of things, even if u don tell me. i can know de. u cant hide frm me anything, even if u do hide, the truth will come out sooner or later for ur info and if i find out that's worst right? so telling me the truth is more important than anything ? dont u think so ? i m sad.. i already tell u i let u go for her birthday. i will take it. i promise u i change not to b so paranoid and sensitive. but i really don like u to drink at all. really. i hate it when wrong things happen? if really u really get rape or molested ? don u tink u will break with me cos of u letting me down and letting other guys take advantage of u ? sorry i dint mean to say the word breaking up cos i hate to hear that. i m dam sad.. but at the same time i m dam happy too cos i can get to spend alot of time with u. and thanks for spending loads of time with me. i m dam sad cos i leaving for canada with the no phone rule and alot of rules. zzz and i will b love sick lar.. loL. i hope u will see me off and fetch me back. really. i always love to see u come fetch me and see me off whenever i go overseas. if u dint i really will look north- south- east- west around the airport and if i still dint see u i will b dam sad and impatient cos i cant see u. sigh.. i really hope u don go drinking and bar. pls understand. i know it's ur fren's birthday and i know u don wan disappoint her. i understand. i let u go but at the same time i m dam worried for wadever happen do u get it? and 12 hrs of difference in canada and singapore is not really good. argh. cos jetlag.. wtf. cant talk? cant play com? argh. i m talking to u on the phone feeling sad. i sad... read the post.. understand.? i really hope u will. ok that's all for my sadness. worried and sensitive again? argh. wad a nature i haf.. wtf. hate it... but don u tink wadever i say is true? m i a good boyfren to u ? i tink i suck.. i don noe.. sigh.. do i ? pls tell me the truth i will accept it.. really.. m i better than ur ex? he let u do everything and i? controlling u ? wtf.. argh.. ok here's the happy things
ytd met soo mei and zhilong for dinner. we ate. alot of shet and it sucks and i totally forgot wad i ate.. we ate. stingray with 90% oil and 10% meat, fried oyster, black carrot cake. darling ate hor fun, i ate prawn noodles and the two funny couple ate chicken rice. and guess wad? i reckon it's inedible. totally sucks.. con my money.. kanina.. i tink a totally shetty hawker centre can beat the high class hawker centre at orchard road.. after tat.. we went to walk walk, after tat soo mei jie jie and long long went to watch transformers.. it was at 950 pm and it's too late for darling and i to watch. so we went home.. sorry darling, i cant send u home.. :( well... and i m also sorry for u to pay my movie ticket for today cos i dint bring money.. sobs.. let u pay.. sigh... next time i pay!! today i dint go school.. wtf.. i went to meet dear at her hse downstairs and i tink i saw her mother.. i went up to her hse and saw her little brother kuan kuan.. i was like oh oh.. i went up to the nxt level and went back to level one.. loL. kuan kuan is cute.. but dear is much cuter.. after talking to dear for dam long today and yesterday. i realise both of us are almost the same mayb only 10% of differences.. i like the things she oso like.. she like the thing i oso like. she dislike the thing i don like and vice versa.. loL.. tml need go school? yea. i do.. study !!! i got to go liao.. talking to dear.. haha... i love u dear.. i love spending time with u.. muackz... love u always.. muackz muackz muackz. cant wait to spend my life with u.. hahahahahahahaahhahaha... my children name shall be>>>> xin zhen, xin hao, ni zhen and ni hao !!! hahahaha.. i wan 3 guys and 1 gal.. 3 guys shall b sailors.. the gal shall b a nerd(means she's gona b dam clever and outperform her brothers :X) ok.. byeee.. blog tml.. very long post.. haha.. nites.. love u always dear.. muackz. piggy family !!! hahahah. oinks.. (^o^) nites..

-; thankyou for loving me