Bring us back -;

she's dancing my pain away

Saturday, 30 June 2007 12:53 am

hey darling sorry i cant post the past few days cos i was sorting things out when i come back from germany and tryin to spend loads of time with u. yea. ytd was our 3rd month anniversary !! happy 3rd month dear.. i love u truck loads.. i hope u like the things i bought for u and the lunch i treated u =) ahha... nxt time more ok ? haha. well we went shopping today ? omg. i was like dam tired lar.. my whole legs dam painful lor. lol i nvr even do shopping de. anyway. tml is the day when ting ting and her boyfren goes pinic with us -.- i actually dint like it but it's unusual so we go lor. haha. anyway i'm not the one preparing the food.. i wonder who will :X haha.. ting ting will lar.. both of us jus eat can le lor. darling i bought u loads of junk 2 days b4 u better not finish it so fast ok. wa lao.. i know u finish fast nxt time i don buy for u le cos u need to go on a diet. anyway darling. i wan sleep le.. talk to u later ok ? for a while i scared after tml i cant wake up to meet u and i late den we cant watch transformers.. love u darling.. muackz.. oinks

-; thankyou for loving me

12:47 am

HAPPY 3RD ANNIVERSARY!!!

Today after my exams, went to darling's hus to meet up with him. then after that we went ot orchard to see crumpler bag! guess what? when darling asked me which one is nice then i did say one. but when i say, he took the crumpler and pay at the counter! i am damm shocked la. i have been longing for one crumpler bag for so long and finally i got it! hahas. thank darling, i love the crumpler. =) darling bought a necklace too! so happy la~ =D then after that, went to meet darling's frenz(sammanta and tian hong). darling tok to tianhong,(his guy partner) for damm long like he didnt see tian hong before in the whole year! after that we went ding dai feng to have lunch! hahas. the xiao long bao is damm nice la! the shrimp bao is also damm yummy. hahas. after that we headed to find soo mei and wennt to causewayto watch movie. but ends up, we didnt manage to watch at all. lolx. =) darling send me home and now i am here blogging. hahas. darling! i really appreciated what u have done for me. i love u forever! muackz! piggy loves queky!!!

-; thankyou for loving me

Sunday, 24 June 2007 1:40 pm

hi darling. haha. sry i could not blog past few days cos i was busy and i was rushing home to talk to u. haha.. if coach see me using the laptop he will take away my laptop. dam lame -.- well i don care zzz i got my ways and means to keep it with me. duh. i m so clever. haha. don worry. well dear. ur exam is tomorrow and u mus jia you ok ?!!! think of me and u will do well. of cos i'm ur motivation. hahahahhahah.. tml i will b flying frm hamburg to frankfurt then frm frankfurt to singapore..!!! so happy dear.. i can see u again. haha. i told my coach i got exams den i sat don need go training. only sunday. u go ur training on sunday ok. i go with u.. but u mus come my hse stay hor !!! haha.. den after training we meet up again alright ? we go walk walk and eat dinner ok ? anyway darling. how's things with u. haha.. name ur toy dog lar. walao. dam ex de leh :X don tell u the price haha. keep it a secret. dam early now lar. only 7.45 am. if i m in singapore i will b still sleeping and ponning lessons :X 6th july flying off to canada and i m coming back on 22nd. pls don think of me leaving cos u will b dam sad and i will b dam sad too. so.. why not we spend the time when i'm in singapore instead of thinking i'm leaving ? haha.. right darling? anyway. i hope the hantu and cruise thingy will not clash with my trials. really. so i can go with u. well, if u don wan me to, den i don noe le. haha.. today's the last day of sailing and i m soooooo happpyyyyyy.. no more cold water. lol. but in canada the water is cold. nvm i can have one week of hot weather b4 going back to a cold country again. haha. i hope u will wear the tank top i bought for u alright. it's kinda representing u. xinni. xin = stars or heart. haha.. sooooo... wear hor!! i know u can wear de. u wan tight fit i buy for u. haha. i m looking out of my window and saw the trees moving so fast. argh. the wind.. pls don b so strong so i can iron man tonight. it means don sleep !! haha.. anyway. i g2g le dear.. i love u so muchy.. muackz. 2 more days b4 i reach singapore
Love ya always. muackz <3 nothing's gona change my love for u. haha.. take care. hugs and kisses.

-; thankyou for loving me

Saturday, 23 June 2007 10:10 pm

went to PIG's hus today to help him to check his bill.
ting ting's darling fetch me over.
the ride there was rather fast.
when we reached, ting ting helped me to open the letter box and we quickly take put everything to check.
and we saw the M1 bill letter.
when i saw, i was damm happy la.
coz like that his mum wont know anything at all le.
but too bad!
the bill is for the broadband de.
on the journey back home, i keep thinking did i left the letter behind?
what if his mum saw the letter?
i keep asking ting ting if she sees another M1 letter.
she says dont have.
but i keep thinking that i left the letter behind.
i was damm FARKING stressed la.
i dont noe what to do.
i tell that PIG then he was like asking me not to worry and stuffs.
but i ask him for his dad's ic and name.
then he keep changing subject to reply me.
it's really pissed me off at that moment.
i keeping wondering if i missed out the letter or what.
timg ting talks to me, but i was not concentrating to whatever she says.
then she asks me not to worry.
why on earth do i want ur dad's ic and name for?
so that i can call M1 to ask if the bill have been send over to ur hus.
i cant help u to check on mon bcoz i got exam.
so i need to check with them if they have send over.
and u insist not to give it to me.
okay fine!
i got nothing to say.
trying very hard to help u.
but...
nvm.
hence, in the end, that PIG gave all the info to me.
but i tell u, i am not going to call now!
ARGHZ!
woah...
relax man!
cool down!
okay.
i am feeling better now.
dont worry abt me la.
i am fine.
u dont need to apologise to me la.
u are not in the wrong too.
i am okay la~
take care.
nights!

-; thankyou for loving me

Thursday, 21 June 2007 3:45 pm

If I had to life without you near me The days would all be empty The nights would seem so long With you I see forever oh so early I might have been in love before But it never felt this strong Our dreams are young and we both know They'll take us where we want to go Hold me now, touch me now I don't want to live without you Nothing's gonna change my love for you You oughta know by now how much I love you One thing you can be sure of I'll never ask for more than your love Nothing's gonna change my love for you You oughta know by now how much I love you The world may change my whole life through But nothing's gonna change my love for you If the road ahead is not so easy Our love will lead the way for us Like a guiding star I'll be there for you if you should need me You don't have to change a thing I love you just the way you are So come with me and share the view I'll help you see forever too Hold me now, touch me now I don't want to live without you
I miss u dear.. blogging now and talking to u online.. sigh.. i really got nothing to do with my ex le.. cant u believe me ? wad can i do to make u feel i love u now and u are my one and only ? later i going to the city.. wait for me come home so we can talk alright? sigh. when i'm with one gal i will only b with her and not think of other gals.. really. sigh.. today weather is rather cold and i kinda having a bit of headache. i can sleep till 11am but i woke up at 8 to talk to my darling.. i so nice rite dear.. i m always so nice.. dear pls promise me u will continue sailing.. i don wan u to stop halfway.. u are almost there.. i will teach u.. u have the potential.. anyway.. i m going to talk to u properly now.. blog dear!!! wa lao.. i everyday blogging in germany then u doing nth like that.. sigh.. ok.. bb
love ya dear.. muackz

-; thankyou for loving me

3:47 am

hi darling.. i miss u so much lar.. cant express how much i miss u lar.. sigh. anyway. today is the end of kiel week. so happy. haha.. 4 more days b4 i go home.. whoo lala. haha.. when i come back i m goin to haf dinner with darling. loL. i don noe why i bold this thing but it's for fun. anyway. i don really like germany.. so bloody cold and this place is weird.. the ppl is weird too. and i don like them cos they don bloody speak english. my xinni is like so guai now lar.. she comes home early everyday and i m happy bout it.. well.. xinni ! keep up the good work.. anyway darling u told me u don wan sail anymore cos u are lousy.. no one is pro when u first started not long ago. i m not really good too. i did quite lousy for kiel even though it's the first time 90th out of 105th. argh.. everyone sure laugh at me lar. sigh.. so sad.. don worry.. i will teach u wadever u wan know and wadever i know i will help u and teach u. only u .. shhhhh. no one else ya. haha.. tml is city day and i've no money to spend .. argh.. nvm . window shopping and takin photos will b fine with me.. anyway darling. i really cant wait to see u.. and go swimming with u 30th june at jurong.. jurong no problem lar.. if pasir ris then got problem . lol.. wow i still noe the places in singapore.. well even if how far it is . i will still accompany my darling lar.. don worry.. she is my piggg and i will follow wherever she wan go de.. haha.. don worry. anyway.. i m gona talk to my darling on msn now.. she's sleeping and snoring.. i can hear u.. hahah.. snores.. nites guys
love ya xinni.. muackz.. hugs.. cant wait to see u... 4 more days.. are u happy bout it ?lol

-; thankyou for loving me

Wednesday, 20 June 2007 3:44 pm

For better or worse, through thick and thin,

you've been there by my side

sharing the laughter and the tears

through life's uncertain ride.

We don't know what the future has

in store for you and me

but this I know, without a doubt,

the best is yet to be.

With the start of each new day

I find myself thinking of you...

In the middle of my busy day,

my mind wanders and I think of you...

Out of nowhere I see your smile,

hear your laugh and I think of you...

Life is beautiful now because I fall in love

all over again each time I think of you.

Your Beloved,

Xinni

-; thankyou for loving me

3:20 pm

Because of you,

I laugh,

I smile,

I dare to dream again.

I look forward with great joy to spending the rest of my life with you,

caring for you,

nurturing you,

being there for you in all life has for us,

and I vow to be true and faithful for as long

as we both shall live.

i love you.

-; thankyou for loving me

1:47 pm

hey darling. of cos i will do wad i promise u.. i don wan hurt u again.. anyway.. the stupid race committee is so idiot.. sunset here at 10 they start race at 7 i was like wth lar... zzz. how's things there dear.. i miss u so much. i m so glad that 4 more days i will b back home.. to our nest.. hahhaha... the piggy nest. lol. today is last day of racing and i dint do really well.. hmm today got interview by local newspaper and i was like.. omg.. why me. lol. don eat too much lar darling.. i can see ur face getting chubbier le.. lOl. darling is getting better le.. going home early. she's such a good gal. well. tml is rest day and i decided to stay back and talk to darling unless i m been forced to go. anyway. darling. sorry to keep u waiting. dumb coach was checking on me with my laptop bloody hell.. well i kana love sick le lar.. nvr had this feeling b4. lol.. now mus talk to xinni every night and morning if not will die ar.. sigh.. i nvr take my contacts when i sleep for 1wk liao.. argh. bloody hell. keep forgetting. don noe why.. is it cos i'm too tired. i don noe. i miss u darling. i m going to eat breakfast now. 8am in Germany.. bye...
love u darling.. muackz.. hugs.. miss u truck loads. 4 more days b4 coming back.

-; thankyou for loving me

1:15 am

NEW & FRESH!

so many days have gone ever since i post.

sorry!

no time.

i am tired.

mugging the whole day.

doing engineering maths.

i dont noe what to say.

darling, i hope whatever u say, will be a promise!

hope u get a medal for ur youths worlds competition.

love u always.

waiting for u to come back!

miss u so much!

muackz.

<3

DARLING!!!

lazy pig! hike out more la~ =p

-; thankyou for loving me

Monday, 18 June 2007 4:08 am

hey darling. a new start have begin.. 18th june 07. i m paranoid, hot tempered, ridiculous and ask u do things u don wan to do. from now.. no more.. all the dark times of this relationship have come to an end.. it's time for a new start.. put all ur confidence and trust in me.. i love u.. i love u til the end of the world.. i love u and i m willing to sacrifice my life for u.. everyone who look at this blog.. from now on.. I WILL NOT ILL TREAT XINNI !! I SHALL B UNDERSTANDING !!! ok darling ? i love u... thanks for consoling me and i have done better.. tml i will do even better ok.. i love u.. darling.. a few more days to 3 months le.. luckily i'm in Singapore by then.. let's spend that day together.. ok ?? i know u wan it. haha.. anyway i'm going to sleep now and i m looking at my darling sleeping in front of the web cam.. so cute.. love ya dear.. muackz... forever in love.. thanks for giving me this chance.. i love u muackz... Zhen Hao <3 XiNNi FOrever.

-; thankyou for loving me

Sunday, 17 June 2007 10:46 am

hi darling.. i'm sorry for today.. really am.. i m useless. i sucks.. i don understand how u feel. i only think for myself. i shud not have make u like this. terribly sorry =( sobs. now i understand the importance of u. i mus control my own temper.. i m losing it again... i don wan it to happen.. all i wan is to change to b a better person jus as u promise me to b better too... i m foolish and silly. i m horrible.. i got no self confidence in my own race and i vent it all on u cos u dint console me.. it's my fault that i dint race properly.. it's not u... it's me.. u haf been supporting me and sacrificing for me.. i dint appreciate it and now i realise it.. i m sorry.. i really don wan u to go clubbing, drinking and going home late.. i will not forgive myself if u go cos i made u like this... doing things u don wan to do... XINNI I'M SORRY =(( SOBS... all i can do now is to wait for u to read this post.. wait for u to cool down and we start over again.. FRESH.. i don wan to hurt u again.. i wan to see a happy u ... i wan to see u smile and laugh. i wan to b the best boyfren to my princess... 5th last for me is a lesson to b learned.. i love u darling.. i iwll nvr hurt u again... i promise.. i swear.. if i break my promise... i will die a terrible death... NOTHING'S GONA CHANGE MY LOVE FOR U XINNI !!!.. NO ONE CAN REPLACE U IN MY HEART.. MY HEART AND SOUL ARE ALWAYS FOR U.. i really hope u totally forgive me.. sigh... sorry dear.. i m really sorry... will u forgive me ? i wan go through thick and thin with u together.. enjoy together, haf fun together, cry together.. i really hope our heart link as 1. no one can seperate us. i don wan anyone to seperate us.. i wan to spend my rest of my life with u.. my one and only.. GOH XINNI.. i wan u to b with me.. not to leave me... nvr to break with me... i wont let the past happen again to u... i wont... i will treasure u... u are my one and only.. i m willing to do anything for u.. even die for u... think of it.. i m really dumb... i keep letting u suffer and u hang in there... i wont do it again... i beg u for a chance.. pls... i jus wan u to keep ur promises to me and change for me... i wan to celebrate all the anniversarys with u... everything.. i wont let u suffer anymore.. our third month is coming soon
Zhen Hao apologises to Xinni for what he do for the past two months.. can we start afresh? 17th june 07. No more sadness, anger, disappointment and craziness.. I hope u give me this chance..
Loads of <3.. Zhen Hao

-; thankyou for loving me

Saturday, 16 June 2007 8:35 pm

What did i do this whole day?

hmmx...

woke up very early in the morning.

feeling very tired.

last night talk to darling until 7a.m in the morning.

and i woke up at 9a.m in the morning.

damm tired la.

after that, i help mummy to sweep and mop the floor la.

then kuan kuan's tuition teacher comes.

mummy went out to fetch Mama from kidney diaysis.

the moment mummy steps out of the hus, i went back to sleep.

lolx. sorry ar, i was extremely sleeply. =P

at 11a.m, i woke up and took a bathe and then after mummy comes back home.

she cooks lunch for us.

lucky she cooks, otherwise i need to cook! =X

i love to cook but i dont really like to wash.

hehe.

darling! when are you going to taste my delicious meal?

hahas.

i bet u dont even dare to give it a try right?

u are afraid that u will get food poisoning right?

so, darling! next time i cook then u must help me to wash!

lolx.

at 3plus, went out with mummy to entrol kuan kuan for tuition.

i was there hearing all the speech by the teacher.

damm bored la.

i wanted to msg darling, but my hp got problem!

arghz!

my hp is playing a fool with me!

i can't even send a single msg out la.

and also i can't recieve msg.

the msg signals keep blinking.

arhgz!

damm irritating.

the moment i reach home, i called the nokia care centre for help.

they guide me thru the process.

and now my hp is fine!

i hope it won't happen again.

hahas.

so happy la~

i bought 2 pkt of DURIAN PUFFS to eat.

sinful man!

i love durian.

famous durian puffs down the road around kovan.

darling, when u come back, i will bring u to try out.

it's yummy!

i'm lovin it!

hehe.

that's all for today.

have been thinking of the pig the whole day.

but too bad he is not there for me.

nvm la~

another week more, my pig will be back home.

it's time for me to mug!

study!!!

dont be a slacker la! =P

piggy quek zhen hao!!!

i love u la~

eeeyee!

crap la~

muackz! <3

ZHEN!!! my HARDWORK!!!

HAO!!! do u still rmb this?

Before! =)

After =(

* oppos! fat liao la~ *

Look at the durian inside the puffs!!! =D

ME! =)

stop something on my tongue? =P

FAT xinni!

guess what's this? urine okay! =X

hey! look at my Elmo cup and not the 2nd award. =P

Pig and me!

piggy so happy la~ happy like a BIRD!

walau! who's the pig sailing on my boat? Want to die izzit?

-; thankyou for loving me

4:06 am

hi my darling.. today was extremely cold and strong wind. 25-35 knots. lOl we did registration today and alot of ppl was there and i wash my boat... haha.. i was thinking of u ever since morning.. wondering how u are and everything.. worry for u and i wan to hug and kiss u when i m back home !!!! well .. don worry.. i m confident u will pass ur test cos my darling is much more cleverer than i m.. duh.. Quek Zhen Hao is normal academic while Goh Xinni is express sia.. wad a difference. well 1 thing i confirm cant stand is that JOVIN. wtf is his problem. trying to ask xinni out when i m not around ? tryin to date her is it.. mind u mate, she's attach and she doesn't like u at all.. wad a pervet.. sicko.. famous handicap sailor so wad.. big ? loL.. i don think so.. i tink u shud jus go find another gal that suits u and not MY XINNI. DO NOT EVER EVER ASK HER OUT AND TALK TO HER COS I HATE THIS KINDA OF GUY. U KNOW WAD U DID TO HER LAST TIME. I KNOW IT CLEARLY. I TELL U IF I'M NICE I'M NICE. IF I'M NASTY. I'M SORRY I WONT GIVE CHANCE. SO GET IT IN UR HEAD IF U LOOK AT THIS BLOG. NVR EVER HARRASS MY XINNI ANYMORE. tml my regatta will start and weather forecast says it's gona b 15-20 knots and it's going to freeze. well no choice i hope i wont b a snowman though dear.. hmmm i will try and get a lycra for u ya.. haha.. and SUNBLOCK. i don wan a ROASTED XINNI. i wan a pretty one.. haha.. anyway... piggy needs to sleep .. nights dearie.. love ya.. muackz <3 hugs hugs.... 10 more days for me to go home... wait for me.. i love u.... when i come back.. i wan spend all my time with u b4 i leave for canada.. muackz

-; thankyou for loving me

3:52 am

i am tired.

i am studying for the upcoming MST.

dont even know a single shit at all.

am i going to fail?

sighs! i hope not.

i will study hard.

dont worry.

i miss u so much.

i want to hug u.

i want to kiss u.

i want to squeeze u.

i want i want...

when are u coming back to me?

dreaming...

sorry for the short post!

i dont know what to blog.

that's all.

good nights!

take care.

i love you.

muackz!

*piggy! love u forever!*

-; thankyou for loving me

Friday, 15 June 2007 12:06 pm

歌曲：baby对不起

歌手：coco

听到我的电话响了一生就暂停

会不会是你我总怀疑

因为这原因心情不稳定

我们之间的问题是我不相信你

敏感又多心怕你变了心

因为爱你害怕失去你

爱的天气总是阴晴不定

爱的情绪也在欢笑中哭泣

(baby)想对你说生对不起用错了方式去爱你

因为我太在意(如果没有你)

我的世界只剩回忆每天只面对孤寂

以来不及在说我爱你

自从那天分手后停不住泪滴

想念一个人

能忘记自己让我爱你什么都愿意

爱的天气总是阴晴不定

爱的情绪也在欢笑中哭泣

(baby)想对你说生对不起用错了方式去爱你

因为我太在意(如果没有你)我的世界只剩回忆每天只面对孤寂

以来不及在说我爱你

(baby)想对你说生对不起用错了方式去爱你

因为我太在意(如果没有你)

我的世界只剩回忆每天只面对孤寂

以来不及在说我爱你

如果能在遇见你把你抱紧

从此步分离决不放弃我要告诉你

baby i'm sorry

-; thankyou for loving me

10:26 am

After reading the post that you post last night, now, I really dont now what to do. sighs. No one can ever be my number one except my family members. This is how important they are to me. I know in your heart, GIRLFRIEND is always your number one. Are they so important to u that your family members also can't beat them? Maybe your thinking is different from me.

Why can't you allow me to go cruise with the sailors? Why can't u trust me? I think the reason you don't really allow me to go with them, is that you are afraid that i played too much with them and get very close to them. This shows that you are still easily JEALOUS! You say that you will change and not be so sensitive over all these things, but i dont see much difference. sighs. I know truely that you want to spend time with me after you come back from your SEA games selection. I know that the time we spent together are very little. You are always away for your trainings and competition at overseas. I know whatever I say to you, really hurt u alot. I am sorry.

You say that you want to go cruise with me only. If you can go, why can't you go with the sailors as well? I wonder... I said that going cruise with only both of us, is really not fun at all what. It's true. What can we do when there is only the both of us? It will be damm boring la. If u don't understand i really don't know how to explain to you. sighs. I am tired now. I don't why must I go thru' all this.

Everytime, I keep asking myself. If this relationship keeps going on like this, why am I still hanging there? Why am i suffering? Arghz. If these continue, I don't know if i can still hang it there for long. I hope you respect my decision and support me. And not keep asking me not to go and stuffs. sighs. I am really damm stressed now. At home, MUM keeps nagging at me. I can't stand it for long. It's rather irritating.Then now, YOU are like that. woah... relax man! I tell you what happen at home, then you will say. Aiya dont bother what your mum say. Just one ear in then one ear out. Now, she keeps nagging at me la. Can u imagine the life with all the nagging? You can bear with it but not me. I am studying at home and when the moment I hear all the nagging, do you think I still have the mood to study? sighs. This is why I always like to be home as late as possible. And if there is a chance that I can go overseas to study or attachment, I will be the first to go man! Stay out with them, really can make my life more peacefully. I know when you read this post, how will you feel la. whatever~ This is me! I can't change! And mind you, YOU SHOULD LOVE ME FOR WHO AM I!!! and not keep asking me to change for you. is nonsence la. But the things that I promised what I changed, I will do it.

I don't know how are you going to get over all these when you are in germany now. I am supposed to be supporting you, but what am doing? I am just making you feeling like SHIT! Sorry. I don't want to hide anything from you. I am just stating all the facts. sighs. I always have the thinking that I won't be with you forever. My attidue doesn't suit your dream girl at all. So why am i still wasting my time in this relationship? sighs. I really dont noe la. Maybe is only my stupid and childish thinking. Sad to say, I don't the things that I do, are they worth it. Now, the problem dont lies with you. Is me! So please dont blame anything to yourself. Arghz! I am sorry. I hope u can still concentrate in your training. Please train hard! Don't think too much over all these things.

now. i am feeling like shit. i can't study at all. i just have to waste one more day staring at my lappy. sighs. sad. i miss u! please don't blame me for not replying to ur msg. i dont have mood for anything now. sighs. i dont feel like talking to u~ maybe tonight, we also dont talk on the phone. just let everything move on smoothly. sighs. that's all. this is what i want to say.
Re-consider in placing me 1st place in your heart.

-; thankyou for loving me

5:19 am

i always ask myself this qn whenever darling wan go out with frens instead of me. Am i her NUMBER ONE ? she told me she wan go cruise with the sailors and she wan me go and i told her i haf no money at all and my mother wont pay for me cos it's too ex for wad she think and she will wan me pay for myself, i told my darling i cant go and i asked her this
"Darling, if i really cant go are u still going with ur frens?" i asked her alot of times and her answer is still YES COS I HAVE ALWAYS BEEN WANTING TO GO CRUISE. then i told her we nxt time den go cruise, only two of us she said DON WANT 2 PERSON NOT FUN. From then i keep thinking, if she really put me as NUMBER ONE in her heart or not. when it's the day of the cruise it's the day when i just returned to Singapore after Volvo Youth Worlds and trials for SEA games. and i wan to spend alot of time with her alone after i come back to make up the loss of time i was away she STILL WAN GO CRUISE with her FRIENDS !!!! haiz. i m so sad. when i am going away, she wan to accompany me like hell. BUT when i m back, she wants to go cruise with her FRIENDS. this shows how IMPORTANT am I to her. haiz. i wan accompany her and she don wan. SHE INSISTS on GOING CRUISE. CRUISE WILL ALWAYS BE THERE. THE TIME SPEND TOGETHER WILL NOT BE ALWAYS THERE. haiz. since she wan to go so badly. then she go. and when i wan spend time with her she's not there. sighs. I REALLY WONDER WHY HER FRIENDS ARE MORE IMPORTANT THAN ME. I CANT SLEEP NOW. HAIZ. TOTALLY SAD. WHEN WILL I BE HER NUMBER ONE ? WHEN???? WHEN ???? WHEN??????????????????????????????????????????????????????? I WONDER.. ENJOYMENT OVER BOYFRIEND. FRIENDS OVER BOYFRIEND. WHEN WILL SHE PERMANANETLY PUT ME AS NUMBER ONE WITHOUT HER FRIENDS IN THE WAY WHEN ????????? I REALLY WONDER. SHE SAYS SHE WILL WORK HARD AND SAVE TO LET ME GO. BUT I SAID IF REALLY REALLY REALLY I CANT GO ? HOW ? WILL SHE GO..? HER ANSWER IS STILL YES. I WILL STILL GO BECAUSE I M DYING TO GO CRUISE. HAIS. I....... I GOT NOTHING TO SAY

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1:27 am

i m back again from sailing. luckily todays wind was not that strong. it's bout 4-8 knots. well i was kinda sleeping today and dam cold lar.. loL cos i took out everything to pee. argh. well darling. i know u wont do insane things cos of me.. u are the best darling. listen to me and try not to do wrong things. i can tell that u are changing cos of the way u talk to me lar.. haa.. anyway.don worry bout the post thing ok cos i know that those kind of ppl will get their punishment nxt time. haha it depend's when ya? well i forgot to take my contacts out for 2 days already and i fell asleep with them :X haha. i'm almost finished with my anime( initial d) soon cos every night confirm watch. wind tml will b 15-20 knots. to me it's dam strong. dam strong and i got to work even harder. this prove more physical training for me when i get back to Singapore. haha. today i had 2 rounds of ice cream and i don noe why i keep wanting to eat ice cream and drink apple juice. loL. well anyway darling i will always love u and support u in wadever right things u do. I WONT LET ANYONE BULLY U !!! WHAHAHHAHA.. the only one who can bully u is me !!! :X haha. anyway. darling i know u can pass ur tests !! i haf faith in u !! OINKS>> pig pig oinking. haha. well i like to thanks whoever take care of my darling especially SOO MEI JIE JIE and LONG LONG ( Zhilong). i g2g . busy busy. love u darling muackz. hugs. 13 days b4 i come back (germany time) 12 days b4 i come back (Singapore Time) lol lame =)

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Thursday, 14 June 2007 9:56 pm

darling! i miss u so much! today manage to talk to darling in msn. tell him what happen to me. he is damm worried for me la. he is afraid that i might go crazy! lolx. don't worry la. i wont do all the insane things la. i got so many loves one all around me, how do i bear to leave them?

dont forget i still got one lovely bf there for me! the QUEK la! my pig! i miss ur oinks... today went for kumon quite early. reach the place at 4.30p.m. mummy fetches me over. daddy fetches me home after that. reach home rather early. i manage to be at home at 6.15p.m. called darling but too bad he didn't answer my call. bcoz he is out in the sea. i am damm worried for the pig la! today morning told me that he is sick. having headaches and cough. told him not to go for training today, he told me cannot. but he says he will take care of himself and he promised me that if he is feeling unwell, he will recover first. hope darling is well. awaiting for him to be back from training, so that he can tok to me.

it had been 4 days since he fly to germany. how many days are u coming back? what am i doing? counting down? lolx. today spent my time studying for the upcoming MST. damm difficult la~ took so long to do 1 single qns. omg?! i think i am going to fail all the module la. labtest already like shit and here come the theory part. woah... am i going to pass? god bless me!

oh! darling, can u just send me all ur photos that u took in germany thru' e-mail? i would like to post it up on the blog. hahas. show off all the cool photos of my pig! oinks! =) darling, i am waiting for u to talk on the phone! hurry! love u always. muackz! keeping thinking of u...

QUEK ZHEN HAO!

I LOVE YOU

-; thankyou for loving me

Wednesday, 13 June 2007 11:55 pm

I jus came back from my training to the apartment. Today's wind was rather strong. so i dint bother estimating how strong was it. lol. i m dam tired after today's training. launch at 1230 come back at 430. wth dam tired lar.. hike and hike and hike. den i was dam cold and i couldn't breathe properly and i hit my head with the boom. reaction too slow.. loL.. i wore my wet suit today and it was rather hot. lol. i was like sweating like hell and when i needed to pee. i freeze lar. i wonder how's darling doing now cos i m worried for her and scared something happen to her.. hais. darling. pls bear with it. it's 14 more days b4 i come back ok.. count down ok? i wan to eat good singapore food. will u bring me to eat and treat me :X ? i was sooooo tired today that when i come back to shore i cant think straight. Siobhan and elizabeth too.. argh. stupid jun hao don wan come Germany with me to spar. leave me with 2 gals and no one sail full rig with me.. oh well.. darling ar darling.. i wan to see ur baby face lar.. loL. my baby gal. i pamper u alot ok.. everyday need to wake up 8am Germany time and 2 days later got to wake up at 6.30 am !! wth. loL. but the physical training is quite slack though, mayb it's cos i've done it many times with Giba the ali baba . loL. anyway.. g2g eat dinner with the whole team now.. laters.. cheers. love ya darling <3 cant wait to see u again .. muackz hugs take care and pls don b sad cos i love u loads. muackz

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11:02 pm

today is the second day that darling fly go off to germany.
today is rather a bad day for me!
having my period on the first day.
i had bad cramps for the whole day.
took 3 panadols down, but the pain is still there.
arghz! being a girl is really not that easy at all.
pain...
today my mood was rather moody!
accompany maryann out to vivo city and we went to catch a movie.
she was like asking why am i go sad and moody.
then i told her abt my cramps.
having PMS now!
then at night went to maryann's hus for a small gathering organise by jun khee.
i am really touched for what jk had done for her.
but i dont noe why ma had went missing in the middle of the party.
sighs!
poor jun jhee.
cheer up man!
at the "party" , i didnt drink anything except for fruit punch
lol.
cool sia~
i never drink!
i reach home around 10++
omg!!!
i just recieve a msg from darling saying that he got a "fruit" on his head.
darling, are u okay?
is it you got knock by the boom? or what?
and i recieve another msg from darling saying that he cant breathe properly and his heart beating is damm slow due to the cold weather.
darling! please take care of urself.
i dont want anything to happen to u.
if anything really happen to u, i will be damm sad la.
i am worried for u la~
hope everything will be fine in germany.
darling! i miss u.
keep thinking of u whenever i go.
damm tired la!
gtg to go and rest.
take care.
love u forever.
muackz...

QUEK ZHEN HAO:

YOU ARE THE MOST

STUPID PIG IN

XINNI'S HEART!

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3:51 am

Yo ppl haha. i m in Germany now and it's like 6hrs behind Singapore. loL. and in Singapore time now i m blogging at 4 am . -.- well. i miss my darling sooooo much and i m so worried for her. she so sad and she don wan tell me why and i became sad too.. Darling pls do not be like this cos i seriously will b dam jia lat as i will keep thinking wad's wrong with u or wad did i do wrong.. wind is strong, gusty i think and well, water is dam cold and today first thing we arrive in Kiel at 10am, we chiong to the apartment and have lunch and then go sailing. Dam tired after 1.5 hrs of sailing and when i was sailing i kept thinking of my darling.. my cute gal haha.. i miss her so much and i jus wish she will b here for me to hug and talk and play and tease and bully her :X. Darling i will try to blog as many days as i can ya. haha.. well i took a few photos with my boat but i don noe how to put on the blog cos the whole web page became German ! arghz.. alright time to sleep now... nites guys.. and darling pls b ok and stay relax until i come back .. i know u miss me alot and i do miss u too. so pls don do anything silly or do things i don like u to do ok.. pls. love ya.. muackz.. cant wait to see u again. haha.

-; thankyou for loving me

Thursday, 7 June 2007 11:35 pm

woah! not bad ar! first and third for today's race. hmmx... keep up the good job, darling. see la! now, i am worried for u la. thighs is swollen. how are u going to hike when it is swollen? zzz. u overworked yours thighs. nevermind, i will help u to massage ur thighs. hope after the massage u will feel better. please take care of urself la. i dont want anything to happen to u. u better dont fall sick! otherwise...
lolx. dont worry la. i will take care of myself. woah! my eyes hurts. i feel as if my eyes are "burning". omg?! the tears cant stop flowing out. zzz. pain! darling, sorry for the short post. i have to mug for tommor's labtest. i dont want to fail again. all the best to u for your race tommor.

love u always. QUEK ZHEN HAO!!! muack! <3

-; thankyou for loving me

11:21 pm

Day 2 of Laser Trophy is over and we waited on shore for hmm almost 3 hrs. sianz. The laser team played bridge and sai kang and poor victoria was in the shit hole all the time. LOL. they held 2 races today and i got a 1st and 3rd. well i m still at the mid fleet cos i got a freaking dsq(disqualified) cos of the jury, wad a blackie. basket. well, my darling is sick now and i hope she take care of herself. haha. and i heard my "jie jie" fainted on the train today. poor her. hope she's ok.. LOL.. dam tired now and the event is up til sunday. Monday flying off to Germany. Freaking long flight. don noe wad can i do.. loL. laptop for 2 hrs, psp for 5 hrs. and the rest of the time... sleep !! loL.. so happy we are flying SQ there so i can watch the in house movies.. wonder if i will sleep though. my thighs are freaking sore and i need a massage.. is dam painful when i walk and it's extremely painful when i hike. anyway.. g2g rest now .. cya.. <3 u DARLING XINNI >> MUACKZ

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Wednesday, 6 June 2007 8:57 pm

welcome darling, as long as u appreciated can already. dont worry la. i will take care of myself. i promised that i wont overworked myself. dont need to worry so much! darling leaving singapore soon! really miss him so much. i am really worry he doesnt know how to take care of himself. keep concentrating on his sailing and forget to take care of himself la. damm worried about his ankle and knee caps. i am afraid something will happen to darling. *touch wood* hope my six sense is wrong! darling, please that good care of urself. i dont want anything to happen to u. =)

today's competition was rather a good start for u. manage to came in second. hmmx... not bad! keep up the good job! ENDURE man! i am sure u can come in first in position. jia you! i will support u all the way. do the things that u think is right and follow ur heart through in whatever u are doing. believe in urself. dont give up!
i will always be there for u. cheers!

that's all for today. got to start mugging now! tommor 2 labtest. good luck to me. =)
take care darling. i love u. muackz.

-; thankyou for loving me

6:45 pm

thanks my dear for creating such a nice blog for both of us cos i'm like so noob at doing this.. haha. so this is the first time i'm doing this thing lol. Today is the start of Laser Trophy and it's not that bad after all even though i got a yellow flag for sculling.. lame.. now i'm 2nd and i'm trying to get first. Next monday leavin to Germany le.. hais.. miss my Xinni so much lar.. loL. No one will take care of her.. HOW??? I m so worried. Well i'll try to blog when I'm in Germany to let my dear know wad i m doing.. haha.. Dear pls don overwork urself when i m away cos i will b very worried ok.. i love u my dear.. hahha.. going to rest now.. laters guys.

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Tuesday, 5 June 2007 9:51 pm

Testing 1... 2... 3...

yeah! our blog is finally done.

waiting for more updates!!!

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